Monday, February 28, 2011

caption THIS!

i actually took this photo yesterday, but it makes me laugh so i am using it today.  sue me.

i have my own idea for what the caption should be, but thought it would be fun to see what others come up with...  so, entertain me.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

legacy

today is the second anniversary of my dad's sudden passing.
i am grateful for the relationship that he & i had cultivated over the last decade of his life, and for the many childhood memories of trout fishing at Kibler Valley, along with the occasional camping trip (or renting a cabin) at the same locale.

i am sad that my boys will probably only have hazy memories of him at best...  and that they never got to join him for a fishing trip.
i am sad that he never got to meet his only granddaughter.
mostly i am sad that my children lost the only grandfather who was interested in any kind of relationship with them... but i'll try to share with them things he shared with me.

we love you & miss you, papa.

staking our tent in the backyard





(and yes, the eldest has worn that mario costume pretty much every day since he got it, except for the days i make him let me wash it.)

Saturday, February 26, 2011

working it

mobility is closer than we think...





















(and OMG at the ruffles on the butt!!!)  

Thursday, February 24, 2011

irresistible

the most beautiful baby ever.*
drool and all.







*yes, i'm biased... but you gotta admit she's pretty effin' cute!





biz mario

doin' a little beatboxing...


make the music with your mouth, biz!
2/23

crumbling

again, i'm off schedule...  this time felled by the worst migraine i've had since 2003, then just laziness.  of course, i don't flatter myself that anyone really even cares other than my mom.  ;-)


my sanity, occasionally
2/22




















motherhood is hard.  it gets harder every time.  it is easy to find yourself falling down the rabbit hole of postpartum depression. 

not long after my younger son was born, i ended up losing my best friend, who had also been my main source of support (other than my husband) after i'd had my eldest. and, of course, there was a whole heap of emotional trauma on top that i still haven't fully gotten past.  one of the big contributors to postpartum depression is the lack of social support, and having lost mine, i ended up in a dark place. i was able to talk to my midwife about it, and while she did give me the name of a therapist, i could never bring myself to call (i'm a total phone-phobe, by the way).  thankfully, i was able to eventually claw my way toward the surface on my own, although i probably should have reached out.

it's been really hard trying to build new relationships with other women at all, and even harder to open myself up and trust anyone to take a friendship to the level of the one that was lost.  after four years, i finally feel as though i might have found a little community of my own, and within it, there are a few ladies in particular that i love dearly and hope to continue building relationships with them.

ladies, i hope you know who you are~ thanks for giving me a rope to hang onto, keeping me from slipping quite as deep into the hole (so far) after baby girl as i went following the younger son. i also have my beloved midwife to thank for her constant support, who has made it clear that her door will always be open, even though our childbearing days are no more.

i still have moments of darkness, but i do not feel captured or weighed down by the darkness.  i feel the hope.


Postpartum Progress is a great site for information on postpartum depression.
if you are in RVA, checkout the Mothering/Postpartum Support Circle, or there is Postpartum Support VA for the entire state (part of Postpartum Support International). 

you are not alone.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

dog days of winter

nothing says february like big wheelin' in your underwear...

Saturday, February 19, 2011

quite the character

when he's not searching for princess peach or fighting king koopa, mario enjoys exploring his artistic side and  designing sonic-bots.

Friday, February 18, 2011

remodeling

the eldest has decided to make a few improvements to our humble abode...

first he drew up his plans:

warp pipes to/from a secret underground room below our house


























then got started on the construction right away, permits be damned:

groundbreaking


















i wonder what treasures will await in the underground room...  a star coin? 1-up mushrooms? invincibility stars?

oh, the possibilities...

Thursday, February 17, 2011

boot scootin' boogie

baby girl is doing the backwards scoot.
too.
soon.

rolling stone...

i had the procedure to remove my kidney stone yesterday afternoon.  they went up with a ureteroscope and broke it apart, and sent most of the pieces home with me...  i had to snap a photo when we got home because, in my drug-induced haze, it reminded me of a snow globe...


the rock
2/16

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

super sonic... and tails

the eldest insisted i take a picture of the sonic and tails stuffies as my photo of the day:

happy grammie-time day!

baby girl *loves* her grammie!
2/14




mamma mia!

so, it's been a rough few days~  i ended up in the ER on sunday, 2/13, with some insane abdominal and back pain.  turns out i have a 6.5 mm obstructing kidney stone in my left kidney that has caused marked hydronephrosis.  i was given some lovely drugs and told to schedule a urology consult, which i had today.  tomorrow i am having a procedure to remove the stone and place a stent.  whoopeedeedoo!

anyway, as i was in massive pain on sunday (and trust me, having gone through three all-natural homebirths, when i say that kidney stones are way way way way more painful than labor), and having been all drugged up since, this project got pushed to the wayside.  so, to catch up~

super mario bros
2/13

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

shadow

the eldest has been wearing his 2009 Mario Halloween costume hat (made by grammie) for the last two days.  the best part is that he puts his Sonic stuffy in the hat, so that it sits up all puffy on top.  i wanted to take his picture this morning but he kept hiding from me.

i loved this shot i caught of him behind the curtain~  i kept expecting him to jump out and shout "DANGER" and then start talking about "unagi"...



























i did manage to sneak a shot of him when i got home from work as he & his brother played Shadow the Hedgehog, so you can see him in his full geeky fan glory.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

reflection

even more fun with fingerlights...  thanks again to kindness girl for the introduction to these fun little gadgets!

Monday, February 7, 2011

super [sonic] bros

putting the new-to-us cardboard blocks and a construction paper "pipe" to use, the boys created a Mario-esque course for Sonic the Hedgehog (and Tails, not pictured here) and had me take lots of pics.
i see another stop-action film* in our future...






* assuming daddy still has the software on his current work computer, or we can find a suitable substitute...

Sunday, February 6, 2011

get a clue

my husband introduced the boys to Clue a few months ago, and yesterday the eldest decided he wanted to play again.  they've been at it for a while this morning (yes, it's only 8 AM, but these dudes are up at 6ish).  they have actually retained a few of the rules, but are mostly just making it up as they go.
much like us.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

thirds

baby girl is four months old today...  my third is 1/3.  


Tuesday, February 1, 2011

h2o




definitely see how i could have improved this shot, even though i love it.  yay for learning something!